I have hit the wall today. This is post-op day 4 for my mom and I can't deal with the exhaustion of trying to go to the hospital daily and take care of things at home. My mom has had a different nurse every day and I've liked them all except for the girl today. When I got to the hospital, my mom looked miserable sitting in the chair. She still can't eat anything because her throat hurts and she doesn't want to eat because nothing tastes good - she even turned down a smoothie and a Frosty! You know she must not feel well.
Anyway, after telling the nurse that my mom was asking for pain medication, I left her room because I could not deal with the nurse's attitude anymore. Maybe it was my attitude - I can't deal with that either, but I can't get away from myself now, can I?
My dad and my husband, John, stayed with my mom until the nurse got her back in bed and on pain meds. When they left, they said she was sleeping (she usually falls asleep with one Tylenol - imagine what Percocet is doing to her).
No one really knows if she will be discharged tomorrow, but even when she comes home, she has a long road ahead. My dad can't take care of her by himself. I need to know how to navigate the home health nurse and Meals on Wheels people because I work full-time and can't be there during the day with them. (And I'm an only child - piece of advice: have more than one child if at all possible.)
When I looked for pictures of people hanging on to the end of a rope, I had to smile at the one I picked because I wish that my hanging on could be as much fun right now. The sermon today (preached directly to me, I might add) was on Worship or Worry. I am really not worrying so much about my mom as I am concerned about how I'm going to do it all. I know God is in control. It would be great to have some extra time in the day or hands in the pot to help with just the day to day details of taking care of my parents. I know my 82 year old dad is concerned about not being able to take care of his wife once she gets home.
It's great to know that people are praying for us. It's only by God's grace that we get through each day.
Anyway, after telling the nurse that my mom was asking for pain medication, I left her room because I could not deal with the nurse's attitude anymore. Maybe it was my attitude - I can't deal with that either, but I can't get away from myself now, can I?
My dad and my husband, John, stayed with my mom until the nurse got her back in bed and on pain meds. When they left, they said she was sleeping (she usually falls asleep with one Tylenol - imagine what Percocet is doing to her).
No one really knows if she will be discharged tomorrow, but even when she comes home, she has a long road ahead. My dad can't take care of her by himself. I need to know how to navigate the home health nurse and Meals on Wheels people because I work full-time and can't be there during the day with them. (And I'm an only child - piece of advice: have more than one child if at all possible.)
When I looked for pictures of people hanging on to the end of a rope, I had to smile at the one I picked because I wish that my hanging on could be as much fun right now. The sermon today (preached directly to me, I might add) was on Worship or Worry. I am really not worrying so much about my mom as I am concerned about how I'm going to do it all. I know God is in control. It would be great to have some extra time in the day or hands in the pot to help with just the day to day details of taking care of my parents. I know my 82 year old dad is concerned about not being able to take care of his wife once she gets home.
It's great to know that people are praying for us. It's only by God's grace that we get through each day.
2 comments:
Anita, I am and always have had you and yours in my prayers. Strength is a miracle, as is tolerance and patience- God has seen fit to bless you with all this. =)
Hang in there and take one minute at a time. I can't know exactly what you are feeling but I do understand just a bit too. We are both only kids and have been blessed with wonderful mates. God's time is in charge with your Mom and we have to let HIM do his plan. Take care of yourself.
Love Sam and Barb
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